Disappearing

Over the past few weeks, I would sit at my computer and try to type something out on here.  Each time, I would exit before I would even put one word to the post and leave.  I have continued my journey slowly and steadily.  I am now happy to say I am 273 and I did it with minimal self loathing.  I'm still very strict in how I eat, but I haven't been following Ana to the T.

Overall, I feel pretty good. I'm getting compliments on my weight loss and it feels great.  I also have some extra motivation of a certain lady friend.  I wanna be hot for her when we decide to rev things up.

Am I where I want to be?  No.  But I will get there.  As far as this blog?  I might continue it.  I might come back for motivation. 

What I can't help to notice though---I followed 4 pro Ana bloggers and they are disappeared.  One girl was talking about how she finally felt better.  The other said how she was at the end of her chain.  I can't help but feel sad for them, I hope they are okay.

Summer Thinspo

The past few weeks I have been slacking something major.  I am back over 300 and I feel like such a failure.  Starting tomorrow I am going to start following Ana to the letter.  My new goal is to be 260 by my birthday in mid September.

Going to rely on a lot of thinspo.

Slacking!

Oh so much slacking going on this week.  Since I was told not to diet or exercise for a week, I gained 10 pounds.  I am so pissed.  But I am going to resume tomorrow and hopefully shed some water weight.  I don't think I'll be able to lose 20 pounds in one week though :/


Anyone have any tips???

A little Monday morning thinspo

I had to go to the DR this morning because I was feeling like absolute crap.  My iron is WAY low and my blood pressure was far lower than it usually is.  For being fat, my blood pressure has always been on the low side of normal but today it was 73/41.  Let's just say he wasn't pleased.

So I have to "abandon" all dietary efforts and go back on Friday to see if there is improvement.  I can work out, but I have to watch my fluid intake and I can't get too overheated.  I also have to incorporate more red meat for the meantime to see if my iron levels go back to normal.

Basically, he wants me to undo all that I have accomplished.  But it doesn't mean I'm going to!  I'm going to add a little more food into my diet but I'm going to workout as normal.  That means I just need some thinspo to enjoy while I'm "limiting" myself.

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At a loss

I have thrown out Ana the past few days.  Eating whatever I want and just not practicing what I preach.  It has to end though.  I feel so disgustingly fat and disappointed that I have cheated her.   Only time will tell how quickly I get get this weight back off.

Does anyone have any quick tips on how to drop pounds fast?  Because at this moment....I'll be lucky to even to get back to where I was before.

Progress?

It doesn't look like much--but I am extremely happy with this.

Binging

It's normal for one to crave certain things while following Ana.  However, it's important to abstain from binging.  All binging is doing is causing you to cheat, and when you cheat, you'll never win.  So, stay strong and avoid that urge to completely undo what you are working so hard for.

Instead of binging--drink water, exercise, get active, get those hands moving, chew gum----anything to get your mind off of eating.  If you MUST eat, eat veggies.  Fill up on some nice salad greens or chew on some celery.  Whatever you do---do not give in!  Sooner than you expect the cravings for things will completely disappear.  And remember, when you crave a certain thing you aren't really hungry---you're bored.  Learn the difference immediately.


Stay Skinny Loves,
P